Ok.... Now What?!

Beetle

To see a beetle in your dream indicates that some destructive influences may be at work in your waking life.  You may also feel that your values and beliefs are being compromised.

Snake
To see a snake or be bitten by one in your dream signifies hidden fears and worries that are threatening you. Your dream may be alerting you to something in your waking life that you are not aware of or that has not yet surfaced.

Friend

To see your childhood friend in your dream signifies regression into your past where you had no responsibilities.  Things were much simpler and carefree. You may be wanting to escape the pressures and stresses of adulthood. Consider the relationship you had with this friend and the lessons that were learned. Alternatively, the childhood friend suggests that you have been acting in a childish manner. You need to start acting like an adult.

Crying

To wake up crying represents some suppressed hurt or previous trauma that is coming up to the surface. You can no longer suppress these emotions. They need to be dealt with head on.

To dream that no one hears or responds to your cries represents your helplessness, difficulties and frustrations in trying to communicate with others. You feel that your words are falling on deaf ears. Perhaps your dream is telling you to be more vocal and work harder to get your point across.

That just about sums up the dream I had last night. I've been stuck in the funky mood ever since......... So now what!?! And WHY can't I ever dream of rainbows and lollipops?!!!!!! 

Pass the Apple Butter Please!

Over the past year I've really stretched my wings and expanded my comfort zone. I have allowed myself to open up in ways that I haven't ever in the past and I'm absolutely loving every minute of it. For the first time I finally feel like I'm living the life I am meant to. I used to believe that I was a homebody. When I was married I would go to work and then go home and spend the rest of my evening parked in front of the TV wondering if this was all there was. Now I'm constantly looking forward to the next adventure and wondering where am I off to next weekend.

Last spring there wasn't a single weekend that I wasn't going to a concert and there are plenty of stories to tell from all of that. I starting dating my current boyfriend and then we starting going on adventures together. During the summer we were busy every weekend with concerts, back packing, hiking, traveling, and rafting. Sometimes all of it in one weekend! It was busy and wonderful. I have met a lot of new people and made some great new friendships. I really have enjoyed it all but.....

I do sometimes miss time at home. I miss being able to wake up on the weekends and have the house all to myself. I miss making coffee and sitting on the patio reading while enjoying it. I miss just being at home. A couple of weekends ago I got my wish. The day was a little busy with running errands and picking up my pooch! But that evening my boyfriend and I had no plans at all. When I arrived at his house he was in the process of making apple butter. Over the next three hours we had finished the task and polished off two bottles of red wine. We were able to be goofy and drunk and we didn't have to worry about who or what was around. We also didn't have to worry about who was going to drive us home! By the end of the night we had finished three bottles of wine, had a wonderful dinner, and made apple butter for our pancakes the next day! I have to honestly say that even though we weren't going out and being our normal busy selves, I had one of the best times!

Here's to all the things that make home.... home! And so wonderful!!! (in no particular order)

Showers
Bed
Pillows
Candles
Pets
My Music As Loud As I Want It
Midnight Snacks
Coffee
Ice Cream!!!
And now... Apple Butter!!!! Yummy!

Office Pets

When I first started my new job in May of last year there was a broom closet next to my desk. Not actually a broom closet. But most of the higher ups considered this office to be lacking in space and therefore it remained empty for some time. In about June I took an unplanned three week sebatical and when I returned to work the office had an occupant. At first I didn't even notice. I didn't know who it was and he didn't affect my job in any way. He was an easy going old guy who was quick with a smile and a pleasant compliment. To my dismay he retired. The office was again empty although it was often full of visitors cleaning out the files and claiming back the items that belonged in their department. There isn't much more that I hate during my work day then loud talkers so I was glad to have it be silent again.

That happiness was short lived. I have a new roommate. I long for the days of old, when I wondered why no one invaded that space. I wish that they would just take the office down. Although it does block me from unwanted traffic. My new roommate is an older woman who lives at work. Or atleast you would think that if you looked in her office. She has an insane amount of personal items in there. Knick knacks and the works. She is also a personal space invader. I soooo wish this was a game! An office supply stealer! She had the nerve to make security track down her stolen coat rack but had no problems about using my desk to store her extra crap when she moved in, but also took things from my desk on her way out. She can also be somewhat of a busybody! She just hits waaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy to many of my pet peeves for this to work out. I'm not sure if loud talker is on that list but it should be. I spend my day at work with my headphones on and I can still hear her on the phone.


But the worst has to be the really creepy fake cat in its own bed. Now if that wasn't creepy enough..... she moves it around in her office weekly. I think this thing is planning an escape. Today the poor thing is the door stop. It stares at me with its fake eyes and cries for me to release it from its stuffed hell. I can't bare to look at it for too long. I once tried to free a vacuum from a friend's neighbor at midnight. I felt so bad for the poor thing. But this cat.... I want nothing to do with it. However, it has given me an idea.

I need a creepy office pet that I can move around my desk. But I want it to be small enough that you would have to look pretty hard to find it. So if you know of anyting like this please, please please let me know!!!! I need something to keep me entertained at work!